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Kadir Ezildi, ‘Katarsis’ program\u0131nda, hayat\u0131na dair bilinmeyenlerini G\u00f6khan \u00c7\u0131nar’a anlatt\u0131. Annesi \u00dcmran Han\u0131m ile foto\u011fraflar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131k s\u0131k Instagram hesab\u0131ndan payla\u015fan Ezildi, “Ben \u00e7ocukken anneme \u00e7ok d\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Babam\u0131n yan\u0131na hi\u00e7 gitmezmi\u015fim. Annemle \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck bir ba\u011f\u0131m\u0131z var ama hayatta anla\u015famay\u0131z. \u0130ki kuma gibiyiz evde. Fikirlerimiz uymaz, \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck kavgalar ederiz” ifadelerini kulland\u0131.<\/p>\n
“BABAMI B\u0130R G\u00dcN B\u0130LE KISKANMADIM” <\/h2>\n
Babas\u0131yla y\u0131llard\u0131r g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmedi\u011fini ve kendisinin ne yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131na dair en ufak bir fikri olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131klayan Kadir Ezildi, babas\u0131yla ilgili \u015fu ifadeleri kulland\u0131:<\/p>\n
“\u00c7ok anlay\u0131\u015fl\u0131 bir babam vard\u0131. Asla geri kafal\u0131 de\u011fildi. Senin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncene sayg\u0131 duyard\u0131. Bazen bencillikleri vard\u0131, yalan s\u00f6ylemeyece\u011fim ama \u00e7ok da babama kar\u015f\u0131 kendimi be\u011fendirmek zorunda hissetmiyordum. Babam erkek karde\u015fime \u00e7ok d\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcnd\u00fc. Onun annesiydi o, babas\u0131 de\u011fildi. Yani do\u011fursa bu kadar sevemezdi…”<\/p>\n
“Babamla \u00e7ok s\u0131k\u0131 f\u0131k\u0131 bir ili\u015fkim yoktu. Allah \u015fahidim yukar\u0131da, bir g\u00fcn olsun k\u0131skanmad\u0131m. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o ilgiyi seven biri de\u011fildim. Seven biri olsayd\u0131m onu kendime h\u0131rs ederdim ve bir \u015fekilde onlara yap\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. B\u00f6yle bir ilgi benim \u00e7ok ho\u015fuma gitmiyor. \u0130rite oluyorum, so\u011fuma geliyor. Bir tek anneannem bana ilgi g\u00f6sterdi\u011finde zoruma gitmez…”<\/p>\n
“KARDE\u015e\u0130M \u0130\u00c7\u0130N \u00c7OK ZORDU” <\/h2>\n
“Babam\u0131 14 ya\u015f\u0131ma kadar g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Annemle babam ayr\u0131ld\u0131ktan sonra \u00e7ok fazla bir ili\u015fkimiz olmad\u0131. Zaten ayn\u0131 evin i\u00e7inde de \u00e7ok s\u0131k\u0131 f\u0131k\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in benim i\u00e7in \u00e7ok kopukluk olmad\u0131 ama karde\u015fim i\u00e7in \u00e7ok zor oldu. Babas\u0131ndan ayr\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131, onun i\u00e7in \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck bir depresyon oldu…”<\/p>\n
\u015eimdi diyeceksiniz; ‘\u0130nsan babas\u0131n\u0131 nas\u0131l b\u0131rak\u0131r?’ Kar\u015f\u0131 tarafa ya\u015fatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feyler, insan\u0131n hayat\u0131n\u0131 elinden al\u0131yorsa, baz\u0131 \u015feyleri g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyorsa ve onlar bir daha geri gelemiyorsa, o insana kar\u015f\u0131 ister istemez duvar \u00f6r\u00fcyorsunuz.”<\/p>\n
“\u0130NSAN BABASINI UNUTUR MU?” <\/h2>\n
Ezildi, “Babanla ilgili bug\u00fcnk\u00fc duygun nedir?” sorusunu \u015f\u00f6yle cevaplad\u0131:<\/p>\n
“Babam\u0131 hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum. Bazen kendimi zorluyorum, ‘Ne yapard\u0131k, nas\u0131l biriydi?’ diye ama hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum. \u0130nsan babas\u0131n\u0131 unutur mu? Ben unuttum. Annem o kadar \u00e7ok sinir krizi ge\u00e7iriyordu ki, bazen kendisini kaybediyordu. Kendisine bir \u015fey yapmas\u0131ndan korkuyorduk…<\/p>\n
“S\u0131rf annemiz kendisine bir \u015fey yapmas\u0131n, evde yaln\u0131z kalmas\u0131n diye karde\u015fimle n\u00f6betle\u015fe parka giderdik. Bir \u00e7ocuk neden n\u00f6betle\u015fe parka gider? Benden b\u00f6yle birini affetmemi bekler misiniz?”<\/p>\n
Programda g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131na hakim olamayan \u00fcnl\u00fc sunucu Kadir Ezildi, “\u00c7ocuklu\u011fum kar\u015f\u0131mda olsayd\u0131 ona sar\u0131l\u0131r a\u011flard\u0131m” s\u00f6zleriyle duyguland\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Kaynak: Haber Global<\/p>\n<\/p><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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